all i wanted was just to sit down and talk..
what i wanted was to understand each and every1's feeling
and know how my dear friends are doing
i love every1 that's why i used to cared..
i was vex and need to tell somebody but the rely i got was: "don you think, you think too much? later if we don meet up you will say we don meet!" [i lost faith in believing anymore]

seriously i ask myself what was friends for just to hang out and have fun?

wasn't it suppose to be sharing tears and laughter together?

wasn't it suppose to be caring for each other feelings? finding out if the other party is doing well?

be it just hanging out for 1 hour talking and it already beats having fun the whole night!
SORRY but i am unable to have fun when i don understands the other person anymore!
i cannot smile so i rather be stuck with lappy and PC at home!


i couldn't care less anymore..
i don wanna be all mess up like this anymore!
i don wanna be feeling this alone anymore..i'm gonna throw this away..
Noelle let's just focus on what makes you smile..
now my lappy and my PC are both my number 1 best friends!

but i am useless and weak i cannot just don't care!!
i cannot i cannot i cannot do it!

but isn't there a saying :
"there is no family that will always stick together, those that are leaving and those that are sending them away have to be strong!"

i will rmb the past and keep it safe away is what i can do

although i cannot stop that feeling of despair but i will get strong i need to get stronger to face life so i will fight and i will keep fighting this feeling..






PS: can't wait for Monday to come i wanna see junjun and jiajia!^^...
......i am useless and weak

Labels: when i close my eyes i can see the past it make me sad that we are all apart all the small little things we did for each others was so touching then...but maybe it had stop at then..